Saturday, May 23, 2009

filler                                                                                           

A few have emailed, concerned, questioning, just wanting to make sure. Most have left. Occasionally, someone really cool stops by to say hello who I'd never met before, and that's always nice. So I'm posting this for now, a place holder, a trail of breadcrumbs, just in case I need to come back.
1. The baby has not been born yet. Best we know, everything is fine. Today is her due date in fact. Apparently she did not get the memo.
2. I am still sick but not nearly as sick or as continuously as before. Some days are almost okay. Some days I want to stick my head in a blender. It's like being in the wrong kind of Skinner Box. There's no way to predict what will happen: some times I am nauseous for hours; other times food just tastes wrong. Occasionally, mercifully, every once and a while, things are almost normal, making it all the more infuriating the next time I try to eat something and end up instead, hypersalivating and spitting up in the sink.
3. I don't know if it's lack of blood flow or volition or if I will ever return here the way I once was before. I do know that I refuse, on principle and practice and a rather unpopular aversion to all things Mommyblogger, that this will never, ever be a Mommyblog. That said, much in the way of Anne Lamott, I kind of need to chronicle things. 

We'll see what happens. Once it does.